Yesterday we heard that the Commander was going to make an announcement at 10:05. The thought was that the "voluntary departure" might be changed to a "mandatory evac" because the warm zone has increased to 200 miles and iodine is being distributed. (Not to take, just to have on-hand.) I stood in the midst of my messy kitchen, sink full of dishes, table covered in un-folded clothes, and my hands shook. I was not ready! I started frantically trying to load the dishwasher but I could hardly concentrate on what I was doing. I was wondering if I should run upstairs and pack a suitcase.
Janeen came over. We had previously scheduled a "cleaning date" so she could help me get my house in order. She told me to CALM DOWN (again) and we started subduing the wild beast of a kitchen.
10:05 came and Col. Rothstein said nothing (for us) has changed. We are still outside the warm zone (237 miles away) and we have Iodine on base already, though we do NOT need to be taking it.
[He did, however mention that we are still (as a base) using way too much energy and about to start rolling blackouts. He reminded us to unplug all appliances, keep the heat at 18c, and turn all the lights off. So we sat shivering in the dark all day.]
And life carried on.
We cleaned the kitchen. Tami came by to use the Internet and helped us fold clothes. Then Janeen helped me clean out and organize the toy closet (under the stairs) and the family room. And I'm that much more prepared if we do have to leave.
I keep thinking of Mosiah 4:27. "And see that all these things are done in wisdom and order..."
I don't want to rush out of here in a panic leaving things undone. I want to put my house in order, say goodbye to my friends, and leave Japan on a high note. (Hopefully in July--when we're supposed to leave!)
As I was pondering our decision the other day, wondering if we were doing the right thing to stay here, I got out my Book of Mormon study guide, opened it at random and read the following: "It is clear from the record that Lehi's departure from Jerusalem was not a journey prompted by panic, but one that was well planned and prepared for." Study guide Chapter 3 Page 9 (This is in reference to the following: 1Nephi 8:1 "And it came to pass that we had gathered together all manner of seeds of every kind, both of grain of every kind, and also of the seeds of fruit of every kind.")
This was an answer to prayer and told me two things. 1) I don't need to leave in a panic. 2) I need to prepare in case we do need to leave suddenly.
(Which is why I enlisted my organized neighbor to help me put my house in order.)
So today, even as the earth continues to shake and quake, we'll just "Keep Calm and Carry On" over here. (Wishing I had a big print of that saying for my wall.)
Wish me luck!!!
(And a magically clean house!)
In other, more normal, news: Baby Gray has taken his first steps. He's getting better balance every day and standing up every chance he gets. He also has two new teeth, he's still pretty bald, and he's cuter than ever.
Post Edit: Just want to clarify: I don't at ALL judge or begrudge ANY of those who are leaving. After what we've been going through around here, anyone who wants to leave is totally, completely, thoroughly justified. If we weren't so close to leaving permanently, we might have made a different decision.